I've been up every night this past week with Ivy. I mean, I always see her at some point in the middle of the night but this week she's been up for most of it. I thought it was something and even took her the Dr. but it turns out it's most likely a cold or teeth. But seriously - I'm so tired. I don't even remember what it feels like to not be tired. Will I ever feel not tired again? I sometimes wonder if nights like this, rocking my baby in the middle of the night while every one else is asleep, both of us wrapped up in a big blanket as she whimpers on my shoulder are the parts of my early motherhood that I will cherish and look bad fondly on or will I block these sleepless nights and exhausted days out and only remember the good stuff?
Who knows, but if you've tried to have a conversation with me lately and I've been a little incoherent - I'm really sorry. I'm just tired.
3 comments:
I am right there with you up all night. I believe that our kids are only days apart. I guess they just like to do everything together. My nights got to the point that Arik is helping out so that I am somewhat functional for the girls.
Just know that when you are up rocking her, I am up rocking my little man.
You know that is strangely comforting Christina. Sometimes in the middle of the night I feel like the only person in the whole world still awake. I'm glad you are too.
I've often wondered the same thing.... If I will look back fondly on these early years or just repress the memories. I'm sorry it's been so rough and you're so tired. I sure hope little Ivy gets feeling better soon so you can get some sleep!
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