So here is our little apartment. It's clean, it's simple, and it's small. There are no decorations or curtains or anything whatsoever to make it personal or homey. This has easily been some of the hardest and most stressful few weeks of my life. I have been so busy being in crisis mode, packing, cleaning, setting stuff up, making arrangements, keeping the kids fed, etc. I haven't stopped to realize what it is that we're doing. Yesterday I had a breakdown. My kids are at an all time high for fighting, screaming and crying, my husband is gone 10-12 hours a day, and I feel like throwing up all the time. And I miss my house. I miss my fenced yard and my quiet neighborhood and my friends with our playdates and I miss all the stuff I've acquired over the last 6 years.
Isn't it just so interesting the way you get so comfortable in your life and then everything changes and it really makes you reassess your needs and priorities and the way you spend your time and your relationship with God and just about everything. This is hard but I know it's good and necessary and I hope we come out of it in 5 months better.
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Wow...it definitely sounds like things have been super hard. I like the way you're thinking about things. It's true how sometimes life gets away with us and we forget what really and truly matters over all. I'm sorry you had to leave your house and all your stuff. Your place looks about the size of ours, but we've never had a real house yet so it wouldn't be as hard for me. I'm way happy you live in a more happening place now though! I'll bet you guys get comfortable real soon, but until then know that I'm thinking of you and your fam and we're praying that everything will go well for you guys. We miss you! Oh yeah when are you due?
oh, i hope things start looking up soon! sounds like the whole thing was such a whirlwind that you weren't able to mentally prepare for it all. about missing your house and your things, here's my advice: try to enjoy the simplicity of your minimalist experience right now. not having all your stuff means there is a lot less cleaning/organizing/etc. to worry about. that's a good thing, right? and i hope you start feeling better in your pregnancy soon too! good luck!
Can you go to some thrift stores and find some cheap decorations, or things to make into decorations? You're so creative, I bet you could make it feel like home in no time and with very little money. Five months is a long enough time...you don't want to be spending it feeling uncomfortable in that stark white place. Although the pond IS lovely.
It's like that saying, "The best things in life are NOT things." Your family is most important, and as long as they are loved and safe, then what more could you ask for? I know, much easier said than done. Good luck Brielle - horomones can't be helping, either.
You are going to love living there. We loved it! The ward is going to take some getting used to for sure....they are hard to get to know...but there are some great people there for sure and they have a good mothers group going, at least they did when we left there. I understand how you feel because we are in an insanely small apartment right now. 5 of us with only 2 bedrooms and 1 bathroom. It's noisy and smelly (smoke and cats). We have some of our own stuff but most of it is in storage....we don't even have a bed for each kid. We went to the storage unit the other day and I broke down seeing my piano and my dinning room table all packaged up and stuffed in a metal "apartment." But it is just for a small time. Keep it up and know that there is someone else out there feeling the same way!
I wish I could give you a BIG hug!
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